i ain't no fatty.

Weight issues are something that I have never had. I’ve always been content with how much I weigh and how I look. I had always been chubby during my childhood and my early teen years, but I had never let that affect my eating habits or my self esteem.

Recently, a lot of people have been telling me that I’ve gained weight. This doesn’t exactly bother me in terms of appearance, because hey, I’d rather be a little meaty than look like a skeleton, right? But I am slightly concerned about how this is affecting my health.

Since this past month (and a little before that), I have fallen victim to ‘comfort food’, a term used for food eaten when in need of something to distract oneself in tension/sadness. This means I have been stacking up on French fries, ice cream, cookies, candy, popcorn and soft drinks more than I ought to whenever I feel a little stressed out at work.

At first I thought a little comfort food wouldn’t make a difference. But when I actually took a few moments to think about it (and when comments about my weight kept increasing), I realized that I was unnecessarily consuming most of these things. I was gorging on junk when I wasn’t even hungry. I had replaced my intake of water with Pepsi or 7up. In school, we’re teaching the students about ‘healthy foods’. We even got a doctor to come and make a presentation about how healthy and junk foods affect our bodies. That simple Kindergarten unit made me think about what I eat and how much of it affects my body in a negative way. To be completely honest, I have been feeling a little lazier and heavier than usual these days.

Getting to the point, I don’t mind being a little chubby, regardless of how many times my brother calls me ‘fatty’ and how random relatives tell me that my face has become rounder than before and how my tummy looks ‘fuller’ than it usually used to. What I really want to do is take care of myself. This will be easy if I cut down on all the unnecessary junk food I eat. I don’t think I need to have fries and ice cream and soft drinks EVERY day.

My mum told me that I should exercise a bit after coming home from school. A few months ago I used to work out at home quite a lot, and that helped me keep myself feeling good and active. I think I should take that up again. Apart from toning me, it’ll help in exerting all the negative energy I have in a productive way.

The reason I posted about this here is because I need a little motivation to get things going. I don't really care about the numbers on the scale, it's just the feeling of being fit that I want to get back again. I need positive vibes from all of you and honestly I think it’ll really help if you all could encourage me in staying healthy.

Plus, if my effort and your encouragement result in me actually becoming slimmer and sexier, then that’s really great, don’t you think? :D

Much love. 

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HELLO ♥

So many things have happened in the past month, but I have decided not to talk about them. Most of September had been a depression-esque era. Not in the sad sense; just in the deprivation sense. It seems like I’ve been deprived of a lot of things recently. Like the general satisfaction of work or the time to relax and read my favourite blogs and write till the nagging feeling inside me (the one that’s always like: I MUST SHARE THIS INCIDENT WITH THE WORLD THROUGH MY BLOG!!!) vanishes.

I do realize that I have a lot of blog-reading to catch up on, and I assure all of you that I’ll try my best to read everything that I’ve missed. I may not have so much time to spew out loads of long comments on each and every post like I used to, but you all can be sure that I’ll definitely share my opinions on your most recent pieces of writing. And I’ll try to reply to all your comments on time, too.

Teaching is pretty much okay. Since the school has introduced a new education system with most of the changes focusing on the Primary section, I’m just trying to cope with the changes in the yearly planner and the massive amounts of work being given – not just to me, but to all of my colleagues – with as much patience as I can. Twice I’ve had to take a break in the Nurse’s office with The Cursed Low Blood Pressure, a condition too common amongst the teachers in Primary working more than they should, drinking (actually more or less gagging on) 7UP with salt sprinkled in it.

On top of that, my dad gave our puppy away to a friend who was in need of some drooling ’n’ pooping company more than my family ever was. I was sad in the beginning, but it’s not like the puppy died or anything. She’s pretty happy, she has other dog-friends and more space to run and poop as she pleases than she did at my place. Plus my cat is less restless and purring a lot more these days. So it’s all good.

And yes, amongst all the general events underlined with sadness, there’s some genuinely positive news. I’ve started studying, with tutors and all. It’s going great. I’m glad I’m making some progress with becoming smarter and more educationally qualified. Plus, I can afford it now! The road to B.Ed looks well-paved indeed.

I really missed you guys. All these new followers have me so excited! I'm about to go on a total blog-visiting spree right now.

After that, how could I not? :O a new post coming sooner than you probably expect, with pictures and all. Only if I have loads of comments on this one though. Yay!

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